the possibility of disinterest

really, it is impossible (at least for me). this business with the possibility of being disinterested. well dickie had an issue with it. i, myself, cannot fathom the probability of being disinterested. i have tried several times for mere aesthetic purposes but to no avail.

to be enganged in a subject aesthetically (especially that which requires disinterest) is frustrating. maybe it is a fault in personality on my part. but still if you are to engage in pure aesthetic experience, if that is even possible, then it means that you have to have a distant attachment to the subject. and i have a theory that a certain human faculty will not allow disinterest. and maybe it is the human affectivity.

for instance, if i were to engage in a purely aesthetic relationship with a person, it will never be possible for an aesthetic relationship, or any form of relationship in that matter, to occur if i were disinterested. relationships are offsprings of attachement and attachment always requires emotional investment. with disinterest, there will never be attachment.

so it is really more of an ideal to be disinterest. maybe it has something to do with one's personality. or maybe the only effect of the personality is to delay the occurance of attachment.

pucha talo nanaman ata ako sa laro. BS.